Gabourey Sidibe talks to Harper's Bazaar about life before and after Precious and a new future. Here's an excerpt.
In her own way, Sidibe is becoming a pinup too. She adores photo shoots. "I feel like a model. It justifies everyone in my life who told me I wouldn't be anything until I lost weight. It justifies that little girl who cried because she didn't think she could be in front of the camera. And it's for other girls who feel like they can't do this or that and feel like they're not pretty and not worthy of having their photo taken."
Sidibe was not born this evolved, however. "It came late, too late in my life," she says. "Something like 21. I just know that I was tired. I was tired of thinking less of myself because others did." Daniels, with whom Sidibe has an admirably frank relationship, told the New York Times, "[Gabby] may be in a state of denial or on a higher plane than the rest of us, but either way, she breaks your heart in the movie." She sits back. "I was like, 'What the hell? I'm in denial?' No, I know what I look like. I'm very much aware."
She adds, "People always ask me, 'You have so much confidence. Where did that come from?' It came from me. One day I decided that I was beautiful, and so I carried out my life as if I was a beautiful girl. I wear colors that I really like, I wear makeup that makes me feel pretty, and it really helps. It doesn't have anything to do with how the world perceives you. What matters is what you see. Your body is your temple, it's your home, and," she chuckles, "you must decorate it."
Sidibe's favorite decoration to date is the red David Meister dress she wore to the L.A. premiere of Precious. "It was so va va voom, my boobs looked so good in it. I had diamonds on too. Diamonds really do it." While her size makes off-the-runway looks an impossibility, she's not that bothered. "I don't really care because it gives me more freedom. I don't just flip through a magazine and say, 'I want this,' because I can't, really."
She's bemused by Kate Moss's recent recitation of the diet dictum "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." "Well, I wouldn't know," she says. "I've never been skinny. I've heard it before. It's just one of those things that people say that doesn't really mean anything in my life. She didn't make it up."
Sidibe feels pretty good, actually, and is working on feeling better. Today she is joining a gym, noting with some humor that her primary source of energy as she's been hurtling around the country of late has been "Red Bull, which I'm sure isn't the greatest thing." About a year ago, she used to "swim 100 laps a day." How did she look then? Bigger shoulders, stronger? "Nah," she laughs, "just like this." -- [ SOURCE ]
Below is video footage and short interview with Gabourey Sidibe during her Harper's Bazaar photoshoot.